Darn

I felt it again. The sudden rush of blood through my veins. The feeling of my heart being crushed into small pieces. The awakening of that damn fear making me breathe hard..darn it! I thought I was over her. I thought that I can look into her eyes when we meet again. To talk to her like nothing happened. Now I discovered that I am not ready. That maybe I will never be ready to face her again. Darn it! Darn it! Darn it! But then again I think I am feeling better...I lost that "I want to die" brouhaha. No, I won't succumb to that stupidity again. I just..darn it!

Oh wot the hell....thank GOD that "ghang" came to pull me out of that hole that I put myself into.

DARN IT!